pipes

Shit honestly happens to me when i least expect it. When great things come my way i feel unsure and scared that hey "its way to good to be true" and then in the end some how all my good streak gets fucked up. Usually its me to blame for the idiotic things that happen but this one time i get fucked big time and i had nothing to do with it. It was blame by association and i just realized that i need to be a lone to succeed. Lonliness should hold me with their fresh cold hands and rock me abck and forth as i shut my eyes to sleep. Im back to the stage which got me here its all good a few more steps ill take and my care taker will take me back. Hes strong and tells me im not helpless i hope i can put trust in this time. I can give trust in his words but not sure if it will happen like this affect of domino's i set out my life to be of misleading events paved in the way of disaster for my misfortune.