when im at the pearly gates this will be on video tape

You will be surprised the feeling of being infinite is much more than people put it out to be.

Significant and Insignificant moments which will be cherished:

A surprising weekend in a shushed college town came out to be a night where chemistry really hit me. I was excepted as an adult, and my first few steps were truly memorable. My sister gave me freedom and space to express myself. We started off this weekend by a small get-together with her significant other, at my mystery man's humble abode. He started off by giving me hidden smiles and kind gestures. At this moment my eyes were glazed and my feelings were supposedly "unreal" so i kept at a distance so i could study him from a far. A few more drinks knocked back and the jokes kept rolling. After losing kings cup and beer pong; my sister, her boyfriend, and her friends went out to get ice for the rest of the beverages. My mystery man was the only one who stayed back. He kept me warm company just by his sweet words. The best part was that no small talk was exchanged it was just one of those types of conversations which you know the other person is listening and all you can do is talk. Having to much to drink my eyes fluttered and he layed me down on the couch to put me to sleep. He had given me warmth, hope, and a blanket that night. I truly never thought in my wildest dreams that this would happen in this sleepy joe town (sc). By the passing minutes this visit became more freeing :Beers in the day time at the beach, wearing inappropriate clothing, and my mystery man. That sandy day at the beach i road the waves like i used to as a little child. Dancing, splashing, and swmining through each wave got me lifted and i realized this is where i belong. I purposly tanned for the first time and i felt like life is so much easier than i make it out to be. After being at the beach the whole day we came back to my sister's apartment and a bottle of red wine was shared between me and her. It was early evening and the plan was already set out for me to do something wild and crazy. I was shocked that this much freedom was thrown at me, but for who i am i accpented every bit of it. The plan was for the whole group to go to the Poet. As i being younger than the crowd i didnt have a id and was basically fucked. Luckly we found an extra id and after a few shots my confidence boosted and i tried to knock up my first club. Sadly enough i was reject by the stupid Poet where my mystery man and his buddies where at. But i was i was motivated to get in to one so i tried the Blue Lagoon and man right when the bouncer stamped baby on my hand i knew i did it and was in. As i walked in the guys there were really friendly, asking if they could buy me drinks and dance, but really what was on my mind was that man i met the night before. Trying to keep the night young my sister and I hit up the bar and ordered two sex on the beaches and let our body's feel the beat of the music. Every drink was like another careless dance move, absolutley brilliant. I made the dance floor my home. Swaying to the beat, moving my hips, sipping on my drink. It was all so real but felt like i was in a deep sleep. After a half an hour of just me and my sister at the club i saw my sisters bf and was still waiting for my mystery man. While dancing quiet smashed i felt this pair of hands caress my hips. His hands were warm and moved me to his beat. I was to scared to look back since i truly felt that this was him, the one i was waiting for all night. Just before i tried to look back, he pulled back my hair and whispered in my ear that he was glad he found me here. As we danced the night away he pressed his body closer to mine as the songs changed. Movements shifted into us gridinging and holding each other like we were together. At this moment i can sincerly say i was infinite. I had met him a day before and felt sparks fly. The 'unreal' feelings i was feeling the night before became a reality and where definatley real. My mystery man held me through everysong, when the music stopped and the club shut down at 2 am, he picked me up and dropped me off to my sister and her bf. My heart was beating more than it ever had before and my night was complete. This trip will go down in history in my books and his name will forever be left as a mystery.

stranger

In life you only find a hand few of people whom you encounter which are worth the tears, pain, and laughs. The day i walked up to a young girl in red plat-form shoes i knew that this would be a journey that my imagination couldn't preview for me. As she grew, my knowledge of love, trust, and family became more apparent. My life couldnt have had a more spectacular moment then when i faced my long life soul mate/sister. Her words have nourished me like a mother does to her young. Never selfish just gave me love and thats all what was truly needed. As she left for her trip to a far away land, i look at a blank airplane with nothing more than tears. I know she'll come back home.

Giving away your heart fully to someone never ends up good. If you give too much, you will end up broken and pieces which wont go back together. But if you give a little at a time then your love is questioned. "What a bunch of fools!," throwing around a shitty word like love. Only one syllable long and 4 letters, then why so precious? The next encounter i had, was with one of the very special few as a healthy plump young chap walked his way towards me and showed me his knife collection. Terrified i kept away and was always the odd ball out, last one picked for games and never aloud in the kool kids club. Years eventually passed and then he started feeling things he couldnt explain. I trusted fully and gave everything but in the end still alone waiting and wishing that one day he will also come back home to me.

Being alone is a difficult task. Building up inside like an atomic bomb waiting for the time to run out so it can destroy everywhere and not worrying about anything in the way. Do you remember when you were a little kiddo? Didnt know better than to make friends with everyone and anyone? Well i was certain this special someone would always be here with me until the day i died. Sadly this was incorrect on my part because everyone grows up and moves on. "Ouch!" i first met him in a small accident with me and the stairs. Being young i was fascinated people older than me would want to talk and be friendly. He gave me his hand and started fixing me up with his first aid kit. My best friend forever certainly couldnt leave me after helping me. He was with me when i experienced the best summer of my life. As kids do during wild canadian summers he took me to McDonalds where he worked. The treasure box of gifts always put a smile on my face, and made me even more attached to him. Each summer I would go and visit my best friend. We both were growing and no one could do anything about it. As we were the first time we met, he kept taking care of me every time i fell and held me when i cried. It was beautiful and ended so quickly. My eyes flashed, i couldnt see anything besides the car and bottle of booze. He left without a fair well and like a fool i am still waiting and wishing for him to come home.



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